As I grew older I began to wonder why I no longer felt the need to follow my dreams. When I was a teen I had all of these big dreams and goals. I wanted to be a movie star, an international pop sensation, a best-selling author among many other things. But as I got older I guess reality hit me a little too hard, and I pushed my seemingly outlandish dreams to the back of the closet like most adults do.
I must have had lost it because nothing had seemed to go my way up until this point in my life. I gave up too early, and too easily. I gave up on my dreams just because I realized that if I actually wanted to accomplish something, I would have to... work for it. I guess that hard work and dedication thing really scared me. It terrified me, and made me believe that it wasn't worth it. It made me believe that I wasn't worth it. No one ever told me that life would be easy, but I guess I never fully grasped that whole concept.
Right now at this very moment in my life, for some reason I feel very ambitious again. I don't know if this is just how things were meant to happen or if it is because I have no other options right now. I was almost very content with the boring, routine life I was building for myself. Working a steady 9-5. Being paid a little above minimum wage and just barely getting by. Then it happened. Everything was taken away from me. I lost my job and I got really sick at the same time. No income and ridiculously expensive medical bills is never a good mixture. I fell into such a depressed state that I contemplated not living anymore. The feeling of helplessness really tends to eat away at you.
The bills were continuously piling up. The money was very quickly running low. The mouths were getting hungrier and things just kept getting worse. Then I remembered that I once had a dream. A dream like no other. I once dreamt of myself being exactly who I was meant to be. I dreamt of myself being happy and smiling all of the time. I dreamt of myself living the life that only existed in dreams... or so I thought.
For some reason I got this crazy idea in my head that maybe I wasn't so crazy. Maybe... just maybe my dreams could become reality. I mean nothing was stopping me from doing what makes me happy except for me. I couldn't use my job as an excuse for being too busy anymore because I no longer had a job. I couldn't use my lack of creativity or intelligence as an excuse anymore because for months I was coming up with the most insanely brilliant ways to make ends meet. Then I did it. I just let go and I did it. I stopped doubting myself and I did it.
I had to realize that the worst thing that could happen is that no one else in this world would care. To me that wasn't all that bad of a deal. I could still do what it was that I loved and I shouldn't care what anyone else would think about it right? If no one else cared that only meant that I couldn't profit off of my passions as I had hoped, but the simple fact that I was doing what I wanted is what really gave me my life back.
There is something about creating your own happiness that helps you to create a better life for yourself. When I began living out my dreams I became a happier person and good things began to follow. I was a happier, more confident person and that translated in interviews which made it easier to get a job again. I was a happier person which made it easier for others to be around me specifically those of a romantic sorts. Life throws you a lot of curve balls. You have to still swing even if you keep on missing. If everyone just gave up on there dreams the second they failed no one in this world would ever get anything done. You have to have ambition or else you will never achieve anything. Its very rare for your wildest dream to just fall into your lap. If you really want something you have to go for it. I say "The Ambitious Loser" because sometimes you don't always succeed right away. Things don't always automatically just work out in your favor. You cant give up when it doesn't work out though. Honestly you can hear a thousand "No's" in a lifetime, but if you give up you are never going to get to hear that sweet, angelic sound of a "Yes." Finally accomplishing something that you have worked so hard for is the greatest feeling you could ever imagine. It's better than how sweets taste, better than the last slice of pizza, better than fashion store sales.
So I start here today, creating my own brand for the world to see and share with me. I know that there are so many other ambitious losers out there. Whether you are still trying to find your motivation again or you are working hard to make your dreams come true, just know that you are not alone. There are many of us out there and many of us willing to help. I want to help any and everyone out as much as possible. I want to see everyone succeed. I will do anything from promoting your business, helping you study, or even cheering you on as you embark on your journey. I don't ask for any similar favors in return all that I ask is that you make a promise to yourself that from this day forward you will do everything possible to follow what is truly in your heart. Don't ever let another discourage you. Don't ever let life's struggles cripple you. We were all meant for something. We are all here for a reason and I just believe that everyone should have the opportunity to show the world that reason. Embrace that you are a loser. You are supposed to lose. If you don't lose things such as doubts, fears and negativity how will you ever have room to grow.
